22-J. Mcmanors 23- Will T

PAST - April 2000. It was Vicky B's 16th Birthday Party and we had a big BBQ at her house, lucy, amy R, Emma w, saz J and all the Dame Allens boys. It was the 8th and we got there at 4.30. I did some pole dancing and he liked it & he did some break dancing. We were sat outside the party and he kissed me. He worked in the copthorn. He invited me to the prom. I of course accepted because we got on very well, he had a lovely personality, very polite. Found out he liked Robbie Williams, Travis & Stereophonics. He had a nice smile and wicked cloths. He went clubbing from really young and told me I should try BAJA beach club. Got on well. ( note from 2004 saw him, he thinks he is Beckham with long hair and highlights)

Well it seems I wasn't always blunt and mean I was really nice about him in that. Beckham comment cracks me up though.I remember the prom I went in with him but kissed someone else. I don't think I did really pole dance in Vickis garden what an odd comment. I just cant remember or imagine what a dafty I was. Somewhere im my vague memory I remember him in Hawai shirts a lots?

Ive had cut and glued the email he sent me asking me to the Prom. Its really sweet but really casual, its like a really smart email incase a girl says no.

PAST- June 2000, It was the night of the prom. I did go to the prom as J's date but ended up with Will T. He was crying at the end of the night because he was leaving for wales and it was his last night. I had known him for 3 years, once I asked him out when I was 13 & he said no but then he asked me out some time later and I turned him down. HA!

I remember Will really well I had a soft spot for him for years. I even had an anaesthetic once and when I woke up drowsy I turned to my Father and said 'William T is lovely' then dosed back off !!! I dont think he ever did ask me out I cant remember that. Its so adorable. Hes also one of the few boys I knew from really young along with JP who my parents really liked .

The worst part of this diary is seing pictures of myself ahhhhh

19- Douglas 20-Joel Daspet 21-Chris Smith

PAST ' June 1999. This party started in the day and was the first time I was sick from booze. I didnt fancy anyone at 1st but ended up with Doug. He was american & he was leaving the next day. He ended up in the bedroom with Ali!

PRESENT ' I think he had slightly ginger hair but its all I can remember.

PAST' January 2000 This Episode Began at 2.30 am just after the millennium. He was a french pattiserie chef  & I really liked him at the time. He smokes DRUM. We decided to stay together & wrote to each other, but I ended it because it was just not going to work out. (a note from a couple years later) Now has 20 inch black hair and likes blood. Very much a weirdo & really don't want anything to do with him.

There are a few smells that will always stay with you when you are older & that of teenage horrible messy room & scruffy cloths is something I remember. Joel is from the village im from in France so I would have been over there with my family and wanted to get out the house and rebel. I know I was shocked when I saw him a couple years later just a lost soul, talking about vampires. Creaped me right out.

PAST' Febuary 2000, Chris lives 5 minutes up the road from my parents house, so I knew him through Jenny & Emma. I saw him at the ice rink a few weeks earlier and we swapped numbers and he asked me if I would go out for a meal with him. I accepted. So on the 12th of Feb 2 days before Valentines day we went to Jesmond for a meal at Amigos. He was really lovely. Then on Val day he got me a red card ' Do you know what I like about you, everything' and a little necklace. We went to the movies and got home at around 12 and it was a school night so my parents were not happy. He was a total gentleman but I dumped him 3 weeks later because he was too sweet. And possessive and it annoyed me. He was from Heaton Manor, hes a tubby hippy but always says hi.

As we are getting further into the book I am starting to remember more. Its funny also how I not if the boys still say hello when I updates the Diary a few years on. Its shows how important it was to me to still have them greet me casually and acknowledge me. I remember Chris he was such a nice person, its so strange to say I dumped him because he was too nice... I remember the necklace exactly it was gold short, with a hanging purple flower on it, I kept it for years along with that Valentines card. My first one. Im also surprised to being allowed out for a meal at 15 on an evening !!! Everyone in the place must have seen how alkwardly teens date :)

I've put in the diary a cut out of a chain email that we all used to use to tell each other kind of if we were keen on each other, I must have liked the response of Chris to cut and glue this part !!

Conflict =Time for a Pause

So im going to take a little moment out. To type up a few thoughts.

I decided to write this new blog ( The Guyry of  teenage girl ) , basically type up my own thoughts feelings emotions & opinions from a private diary that I wrote from aged 13. I had always been told by friends. Oh I wish I had kept one, I wish I could remember, I wish I had done this. Which eventually turned into, you should publish this, you have to keep hold of this book. Its comedy gold.

The first thought I had was to type up word for word aged 13-19 my full teenage years then get rid of the book. It was my life, my passage, my experiences and my growing up.It would take me months to complete a bit at a time & I would laugh maybe cry at some of the heartaches. There is something amazing about writing, about sharing your story. Something really real about writing down about your first real relationship, the first time you fell in love, the first time you were completely heart broken. And I chose to share all this.

Firstly I considered my partner Toni, my partners family,my family, my staff would all be able to read it.Everything about my life experiences! Well they are reading it, and I don't mind. The thing is the older you get, the more comfortable you are with yourself. With who you are, & where you came from.I wouldn't deny my youth & silliness for anyone.

I didn't love school, I didnt love myself, I changed countries & schools so many times, I was never settled. I was the french frog in 1 school, the roast beef in a another. I never fitted in. Or at least I never thought I did. But I met some really lovely people along the way. I would never regret or deny anything I have ever done because every story, tail, action is what has moulded my character.

I am an open book, I will tell you anything about me, I would share anything I owned with you. I am me.

The blog has been popular its not even 48 hrs old and has had 600+ views.

I must admit I did not think my own views would cause a problem, The hardest thing is coming across a line I wrote myself, a line putting myself down. When there was really no need. I want to reach out and stop myself from ever having been sad, or crying for the wrong boy. But it is what every single person goes thought in their experiences of growing up, kissing, dating, breaking up .... La Vida right?!

I have heard from a couple girls they would like me to remove their names, thats ok of course not a problem so real names are regular font and fictional names are in italics. To save confusion. :)

One thing I didn't plan to do was to ask everyone first, I didn't think I needed to contact a host of boys and girls who I hadn't seen for 15 years. But maybe I did. So I sent a quick message to them just to check everyone was ok with it. Well the boys love it one saying 'u cud have put a better picture of me up' another saying 'brought back some great memories' 'we were all kids & was good laugh, wouldn't want to change or forget my past' 'looking forward to future posts' . 1 boy wasn't so keen but again no problem. From the girls side everyone ive heard from finds it funny, likes it or reads it. :) on we go

I can see where the views are coming from so if you dont like it dont read it. No likkey No readdy lol

11- A. Moyer 12- Cato

Looks like plenty more kissing partners are about to be be uncovered. I wonder if I was in training for anything. Bearing in mind I'm pretty sure I had a huge brace throughout most of my early teens.

PAST 'October 1998 Small guy, bens best m8, who also goes to RGS. I was upset at Bens 'private' party because Aaron was there so I pulled him & he lent me his puffer jacket all night as the bouncy castle was cold. Don't like him as he is 2 immature.

PAST 'October 1998 It was at the same party as Ali. Cato was pi**ed & pulled all the girls. I don't really fancy him. See him round all the time at RGS. He has 4 fingers on one of his hands.

We all technically have only 4 fingers on each hand. Very un PC to write that. But we are somewhat more judgemental when we are teens. On reading about the bouncy castle party it brought back memories of having to get picked up by my dad somewhere far away in the country maybe??? and I recall being worried in case I smelt of alcohol or cigarettes in the car.

9- Michael Le Fratter (micky) 10- Daniel Sanjuan

PAST ' Sept/Oct 1998, Small and cute. Goes to Kings. Kissed him in Global Cafe before Aaron & then at M. Chorltons.

Next post was He now lives in America so have not seen him from 1999.

PAST ' Dan was at RGS knew him from mutual friends. I was seing Aaron & he was seeing Elaine but never mind. Always has long term GF's. A nice guy.

Next post See him about as he worked in Osbornes and Scalinis

PRESENT Find it a little cheeky to write never mind after the cheating part.... Lots more kiss and tell stories to follow

13-D. Keating 14-Florian -15 Nicky Dutter

The next 3 entries just seem to have little paragraphs so I will shoot through them.

PAST ' October 1998, One day Cato had an afternoon house party and Aaron & Althea were upstairs, so I got 2gether with Aarons best m8. D is immature but well cute.

PAST ' November 1998 Flo was only in the UK for a few years, he now lives in Austria. He was gorgeous and we kissed 3 times at M. Charltons party. Never going to see him again but he was lovely.

PAST' November 1998 He's and alright guy, but I didn't fancy him at the time. Bit of a male slapper. We wanted somewhere private to kiss and ended up in the toilets. His big brother & others kept knocking on the door. Got into a fight later that night & he then went off with Hally & J.Stevenson.

The bafflement continues on .....

16- Andy Thompson 17-? 18- Stu Graham

Nearing towards the end of 1998 just 2 more kisses were to be had. This blog has now been live for 24hours and has had 425+ Views, which seems huge to me. So someone somewhere is enjoying it. Laugh with me, its only going to get worse.

PAST ' November 1998 Didn't know who he was. We started kissing, he felt my a** & that is when S. Lacy started a fight with me. He goes to Kings and I see him around.

2003 another note underneath reads '5 years on see him quite a lot at Baja Mood and Foundation'

One thing to add to the post 16, I remember this kind of fight,although I don't think we really fought. I know an older guy who was with S.lacy poured a beer over my head and pushed me around, or something like that, My dad remembers coming to collect me from the party early as I has cut the back of my head open being pushed in the bathroom against the soap holder, pretty serious stuff for a party full on teeny boppers!

PRESENT  Shona now hangs out with S.Lacy and im sure she is lovely :)

Please note that man underneath I think is the only person I ever kissed who's name I didn't know.

PAST 'November 1998  LAD in an orange shirt, All I knew at the times he was in a bedroom with Ruth P, he is now famous.

I think it was a biker grove person maybe or something like that ???I don't even know.

PAST' June 1999. I hadn't pulled for over 6 months and went to Mickeys leaving party in Jesmond. It was june the 25th 1999 & I went dressed in a suit & tie 2 B different. Stu was high which I didn't approve of, he's ok but then went to sleep at Shonas and pulled Ruth & avoided telling me

Note in 2001 I see him around quite a lot as he goes to foundation, he has changed he has got fatter. Hes a nice guy & always stops to say hi. (JP was also there one night & txt saying 'Im over here')

Its mean saying he got fatter so I apologise, I did too. Onwards and Upwards. Lots more random teen patter coming up. By the way if your reading the blog and know your name is coming up soon & want me to omit, let me know ill change your names haha.

8- Aaron 1 yr younger

I began reading this passage before typing, Thinking back i never thought I would have kissed a boy with a girlfriend but I obliviously did. So funny reading the words BF and GF, GF now to me means Gluten Free in the business world of Catering. I have pictures of lots of the boys but not many of me at that age I guess I was always the one with the camera...

PAST' September / October 98, I met Aaron in Sep, he was Sarah's BF. We got on quite well & that night he came to party at Global Cafe on the 5th & even though he has GF well we still pulled each other. He was wearing a red shirt and beige pants and he looked really nice. We first kissed outside then went indoors to the sofas. Then on the 19th we spend 2 days together in town chatting about how good the party was going to be. Quite a lot happened that night. I went off with Dan S & he went off with Sarah . He groped me. Sarahs little sister went a bit mad and she kicked him in the privates. It was a whole big problem because we couldn't tell anyone we were together because of her. I went round to his after school & we went to town together. I went to another party on the 9th October in a church in Jesmond and Shona was there going mad because we told everyone we were together & to Sarah. I nearly had a fight but Will Turner managed to pull us apart. We went out for a while after that then one day we went to town together and I told him I thought he had GAY hair. That night he rang me and dumped me. I was devastated and cried for the 1st time. He paged me after saying ' how now brown cow, 1/2/3 who could this be, 4/5/6 ill give Aaron his kicks'

Its mortifying reading some of this back, its been about 10 years since I looked at this old diary. Dont know if I should run or hide :)

6- Nick Vickars & 7-Kieran Parslaw

PAST ' July/Aug/October 1998. We are just mates, but I kissed him the first time at Caz's house party during the day. Tina was there and didn't approve.Also at M. Charltons house party because he wanted to beat his friends score. I see him around everywhere and we always stop for a chat.'

This Blog post has me thinking, during the day ? When we were supposed to be at school or when I was supposed to be at Ballet? And Caz seems to have an awful lot of the adventure going on at her house haha. Who is tina who's didn't approve ??? If anyone know any answers please feel free to comment away.Ah just remembered Tina was the german exchange student I had who was very religious. OOps

PAST ' July/August/October 1998. Kissed him the 1st time at Cazs house party, then also at Jesmond party when I was seeing Craig, we snuck off for a cheeky kiss. He is a good looking kid but a bit of a male slapper. Then kissed him again at M Charltons party. He went to Kings was just a mate.

'2000' See him around quite often always says hi'

Some of this Guyry seems quite repetitive and there is a lot of kissing going on during the summer, I don't think it hots up till my late teens though. If there are any perverts reading.

I think the wording male slapper seems harsh though. I know that is obviously meant the boys we spent time with who kissed the most girls though so not as bad as it sounds. Maybe stud is what is more commonly used now to describe this. :)

PRESENT ' I believe he married Dominique :) proper love story

3- S. Mctosh 4-Wazz Moashin

Cant really remember much/any of this but it seems like a tiny episode anyhow.

Decided to retract this post as unfortunately I have heard he is no longer with us. RIP

At the same party

PAST' It was June the 27th 98, the same party as S.M. Wazz was lovely and looking after me as S.M had been very clingy, he even lent me his jumper so that I wouldn't be cold. At the end of the night he said 'Emma do you like me at all?' to which I replied 'yes'. He said ' well prove it' so I kissed him. He is a Muslim and has very strict parents. So he used to go to the phone box near his house and call me for a weeks after school.

Pretty full on kiss 3 & 4 in the same evening tut tut. I cant believe all it took was the words prove it to get a kiss though. Just goes to show you girls, boys have 1 thing in mind lol.

I kept the invite to this party, so the discos we used to go to were £3.........and 7-11 I think most of them must have been more like 7-9.

2- JP

Here we go again word for word 1998

PAST 'Friday the 8th, one week after A.S. I went to a disco, Dominiques & Hally's. I kissed JP that night, right after my asmah attack outside. He was lovely but wore his kangol cap during the whole evening. A.S hadn't showed up and I was gutted at 1st but JP was a better pull. At 1 point JP said 'emma I think I'm falling in love with you ' We started going out then. He went on holliday to Grece and brought me back a necklace. We had a bit of a break then in July I went to a party in Heaton after having a family meal. It was the 4th. It was Caz & Elaines birthday. Everyone seemed pi**ed off with me because they though that JP & Brooke should get it on. However we were still couple of the night. We had broke up before hand because I dumped him and told everyone he was a bad a kisser. Which he isn't. He goes to RGS school. We used to meet up every night after school. One day we went to the ice rink had fun and he taught me what a chip butty was. My mother came to pick us up from the garage and we broke up that night'

Gosh what a shocker, so the kangol event was obviously important enough to write it in a diary ! Since when did 1 kiss at 14 turn into falling in love.... how funny .So many words used when your a teen that it takes a decade after to discover the real meaning. And what oh what is 'couple of the night' sounds like a vile prom word ! I wrote a note at the bottom of this which says JP makes more appearances further on in the guyry.

There is also  index at the front of my diary and it has a few names of boys that taught me lessons. JP has a star and lesson 1 on it then it says ' JP is a persistent player who i ended up kissing over 4 years, My lesson from him was because of that fact we would get back together, he means a lot to me and we were often arround each other' This looks like an update from 2001/2002

JP's doodles dated 1999

A picture of JP probly upstairs in Burger King

5- Craig (2 years older)

I think when you are so young you tended to stay within your circles of friends and everyone spend time with and kissed all the same boys or girls. This one was outside the box.I remember him stinking of smoke all the time.

PAST ' July 98. During the summer my German exchange student arrived. Tina. Craig was the English host for tom so I saw him everyday for 2 weeks. We met at went and wild the first time, the next day was trip to metro centre, my 1st time in a pub. We went to light water valley & he asked me out. He then sang roman songs to me all the journey on the bus.He always wore the same cloths. He came to see me at my work a few times. He wanted to go in the RAF but only had 5 GCSE's as he broke his arm during exams so a teacher had to write for him. He was a charv and we eventually lost contact'

2000 ' Seen him in town with a baby in a pushchair. Glad I got away in time.

PRESENT' I saw him when I went to the longbenton cat and dog shelter with a friend. Craig was working there and recognised me straight away. Its always a bit awkward to see people from your past if you just never tried to keep in contact with them. :( It was news to me I was first in a pub at aged 14 but if its in the guyry must be true! & roman songs really ???? just thought it could be Ronan Keating songs. Memory is a wonderful thing.

1- Alex Scott (scotty) 1 yr older

If anyone has read this before, there are a few fictional names being added to if its in italics use your imagination, welcome to the edited version :)

This is word for word what I wrote when I was a teen. I hadn't had my first kiss yet :(
But it was all about to change. Boob tube and Spice girl platforms to the ready ...

PAST : 'Friday the 1st of Mai 1998, went to Cazs house for a party in Gosforth. We went for a walk to the shops & ended up in a fight in the park. Some charves basically started on us. When we got back to Cazs, mazz and scotty arrived. Scotty and I sat on the window ledge looking at the stars. Elaine & Dan came over & had a few words with both of us. Jenny D then stayed over at mine. I was well chuffed at the time. He goes to RGS school is average height, dark hair & 1 year older'

That was cringe worthy. I think I skipped the bit about drinking hootch. HOOTCH haha. We didn't get beaten up, I think a few foul words were thrown about and maybe one of the boys had a scuffle ... I seem to have totally missed writing about the actually experience of a first kiss. Maybe I was embarrassed, or maybe I thought my parents would find the Guyry....

PRESENT : Alex was actually the first person to post a comment on my other blog & have seen him in the Grainger Market last time he was in the UK :) Hes currently in Malawi doing some amazing stuff.

.This blog is going to be hilarious.

                      
I have a diary I wrote from aged 14,I called it the guyry and only wrote about boys....

Im going to cringe, your going to cringe....

I have pictures, cards, doodles, letters, dont be ashamed if your in it. We were all teenagers & we grew up...

Its not meant to offend anyone or be rude either...

You are joining me on a journey that began 15 years ago....

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